the Bebop

2002-12-30T08:14:00.000-06:00

whatup people. for anyone who accidently stumbles upon this entry i have a treat for ya, my LAST FINAL blog entry. i havnt been doing much. i got my comp taken away for smoking, and i dont think ill get it back til i move out,so my internet days are over.

i dont think im really going to try and make anything of my life, i think im gonna make an attempt to graduate though, cuz like, i want a job a step above fast food shit.
this is what sucks so much about not believeing in anything, like god or an afterlife, i see my life as some tiny drop in the vast ocean of time and i dont really think anything ill do now will change that, so why bother? im goin to live life , have fun, do what i want, then die whenever that day may come. like anybody's really gonna remember my, or anyone else's name in 500 years.

well, whatever, im tired and bored, if anyone wants to chat, my # is 457-6248

with that, i sign off

2002-09-01T16:02:00.000-05:00

i thought id do something totally crazy like update my blog XD

i haven't been doin much of anything 'cept doin homework and stuff. if i wanna get into UNO i seriously gotta get my GPA up just a bit. damn me and my slacking first two years of high school >.< oh well, when im not doin HW im usually just playin games or readin or whatever. I just started a game on Final Fantasy V a few days ago. maybe its just me , but these old school FF games really fuckin rock lol.

The First two weeks of school went off without a hitch, im havin a liiittle difficulty in my Problem Analysis class, which is like, a sister class for Physics, but problems in there aren't really surprising at all, cuz its a bitchass honors math class >.<
so heres my schedule:

A DAYS

Late In (I don't get into school until 9:30)
Algebra 3-4
Honors Physics
Early Out

B DAYS

Ethnic Studies
Humanities
Problem Analysis
Early Out

And thats that,i think my schedules ok, especially with those 3 rockin "outs" i got XD

2002-07-26T20:15:00.000-05:00

what's your cowboy bebop theme song?

i saw this quiz on a fellow blogger's blog, and i decided i had to take it. cuz i mean, obviously cowboy bebop rocks

2002-07-21T23:01:00.000-05:00

mint skittles fucking rock

2002-07-20T18:38:00.000-05:00

>.<
nuthin to dooo000oooo.
all my japanese friends are doin stuff with their host families this weekend, so i dont have anything to do, maybe ill go see a movie or somethin. i also need to get a hold of some smokes >.<

2002-07-18T22:55:00.000-05:00

and now, updates on boring ol' me...

nuthin much really. I got "promoted" to assistant english teacher at UNO for the discussion classes with the japanese students. iv been smokin a lot lately too. hmm *shrugs* thats about it lol.

2002-07-18T22:40:00.000-05:00

and might i add....fuckin blogger script >.<

2002-07-17T22:59:00.000-05:00

argh...ok so uhh this shit showed up twice *shrugs* fuckit , im not gonna try to fix it anymore ^_^

2002-07-17T22:58:00.000-05:00

Ugh >.< I'v been like..so stupid for the past few months. Lemme explain.

For the past coupla months iv let myself slack a lot. Even in my japanese class, which i regret now . I was more than happy to just move into an apartment with a friend , get a shitty job and do worthless shit like play videogames for the rest of my life. Now that iv gone to this japanese discussion class again this year i cant even imagine how much i would have been wasting my life and hated myself for it. Now this may not seem like a big fuckin deal to many, but for me it is...i got really depressed all the time not knowin what i wanted to do with my life. I didnt even have a passion, no productive hobbies or anything. So basically i just gave up and became happy with my crappy life.
Basically what im sayin is that iv found my passion now. Japanese. Im gonna learn it, backwards and forewords. Im gonna learn it , major in it, go to college for a few years and then im gonna see about transferring to a college in japan, maybe become an English teacher or a translator.

so, i guess what i also wanna do is apologize to many of my friends for bein really incommunicato lately, and that i dont hate ya, iv just been realy fuckin busy. thanks fer understandin. ^_^

2002-07-07T08:06:00.000-05:00

Well, the first gathering thing for the Japanese Discussion Group went fairly well. It wasnt really a class as much as a "get to know each other thing", like i think i said in the other log. So anyway, it was on thursday, and i drove to UNO to meet up with the Japanese students. So , i wait in this building they call "The Clubhouse" for like, and hour. All the people show up and then we get on a bus and drive out to Ralston to go to an Independance Day parade thing. It really sucked in a way, cuz it was scorching hot and shit, but it was cool. After that the bus drove us to Albertson's so the students could get things that they'd need for their stay here, like shampoo and toothbrushes and stuff.

So that was like, 3 days ago, and i havnt been up to shit >.< just studying japanese and drinkin this disgusting "diet code red mountain dew"

2002-07-04T02:39:00.000-05:00

oh yea, as much as i hate being a conformist i migh start a KMORG lol, those things have some really cool features.

2002-07-04T02:26:00.000-05:00

got my personal section up, weeee. there'll be more to it later, once i think of more stupid things to say about myself hehe.

2002-06-29T20:54:00.000-05:00

not much been happenin with me as of late, just been chillin , playin Chrono Trigger, cuz i finally got Final Fantasy Chronicles, yay for me.

Also, like last year, im participating in this Japanese discussion class thing at UNO. Basically its about (4-8) english kids talking with a group of japanese students from japan. What we do is help these students get used to America and adjust, for the few months that they are here learning english and whatnot. And basically its a ratio of 8 english students to 36 japanese students, so were like, seriously needing help. So, if you wanna participate too, and if i know you, just call me by monday the 8th (457-6248) or mail me im, i dun give a shit.The very latest you can join ,im guessing would be the following monday. We could use the help, and theres free lunch on campus everyday ^_^

so like, heres all the details:

Starts on Monday and lasts until the start of our school year
Its 8 am-12 HOWEVER there are 3 individual classes that make up this discussion thing. they are totally mandatory and you can choose whether to go to the first, second, third, or all of em.
Theres no homework, no responsibility, nuthin. You just gotta sit there and talk to lots of cool Japanese girls (yea, almost every single Japanese transfer student is a girl this year, kinda like last year)
Every saturday for 3 weeks we go on different field trips, like, to museums and the zoo and shit

So, like i said, if i know ya, and you wanna do this , then just talk at me and we'll work somethin out.

2002-06-28T11:45:00.000-05:00

ok, so like, im a little late, but ill fill all you loyal readers out there (lol) in on what i did last weekend (friday-sunday)

FridayMy mom, sis,cousin, bro and I went to Missouri to go to Worlds of Fun. It was like, a 4 hour drive there, but i was readin and sleepin, so i didnt mind, and my siblings were being fairly civilized. So anyways, we get to our hotel and get settled in, we swim for a while, and then leave cuz the pool was closin. About 5 minutes before that this group of teenage girls were like, totally hella bein slutty in my general direction. I think it was cuz i was the only guy there and they were bored *shrugs*. Anyway, at about 2 am me and my bro sneak out and smoke a little weed. We went back and i swear, these (hot) skanks from the pool were like, wanderin the hotel, and they ended up followin us at a distance while giggling >.< it was cool, but i was also high, so my judgement was fairly screwed....so like, i didnt do much with em anyway, just found out what room they were stayin in and wandered around with em in a daze, i think..

SaturdayWe left for Worlds of Fun around 12 am and stayed till 6pm. Didnt do much except ride roller coasters and shit, wasted lots of money on over-priced snacks and stuff. At around 4 i left the park on accident, cuz i went to the car to get somethin, and they wouldnt let me back in >.< so i had to like, wait in the car for 2 hours lol. Went back to the hotel,ate, then swam.

SundayWent to Oceans of Fun after we checked out of our hotel.Swam and shit, then left around 5, and drove back to Omaha.

Interesting shit huh ^_^

2002-06-28T11:30:00.000-05:00

wow...i havnt written for like, a week

2002-06-18T22:25:00.000-05:00

blah ^_^

nuthin much up with me, 'cept im in a pretty damn good mood.
Me an' Bobby got picked up by Jen,went to FFC, then chilled at her house and swam and stuff. fun fun ^^
Now im back at home and should finish this load of Japanese homework i got, but for some reason, it doesnt seem like an oppressive ordeal that im going to have to live through, which is amazing for my slacker self...

also, i think i finally got these damn links fixed >.< and if theyre not...JEN!! help me! >.<

ok , im out to shower and do my homework.

2002-06-15T07:00:00.000-05:00

*yaaaawn*

2002-06-15T06:57:00.000-05:00

I'v been wandering around in a fog for the last three days. And in other news, i was s'posed ta get drunk with everyone, but i guess things didnt work out, which is fortunate for me cuz today my Japanese teacher wants me to come over to her house so she can fill me in on the information that i missed when i was sick. and i uhh...dont think i could with a hangover lol.

2002-06-10T20:10:00.000-05:00

i hate blogger script *stabstabstabstab*

2002-06-10T20:05:00.000-05:00

jeezus, fix a link here,name fucks up there >.< i think im gonna sleep now

2002-06-10T19:49:00.000-05:00

oh yea..i changed the links a bit from their nicknames to their real names, for your perusing convenience (and if you dunno) from here on out : Jen is unchanged,Faye is Carolyn,Mousse is Mike,Oni is Bobby,Duo is Brett. And thats it, ya ignorant bastards ^_^

2002-06-10T19:41:00.000-05:00

Hmm...things are cool now, yay. Nothin much up with me, Bobby came over last night (or morning) around 1:30 am, right when i was in the middle of takin a freakin shower lol. But we hung out and walked to burger king around 7. Loaded up on coffe, which was loaded up with cream and sugar and shit. After that i guess we came home, did some shit, and he left so i could finish some hw and get some sleep. Fun Fun. I was supposed to go to japanese class today, but i guess i didnt feel up to it *shrugs* and the funny thing is i had gotten all of my homework done, too.

Annnnnnd, in the true fashion of any slacker, iv decided i need to write a book and live off o the money that it will make me , lol

And lastly, when i get up to it, im gonna make a bios column for my site

2002-06-09T21:45:00.000-05:00

wow...one can write the damndest shit when exhausted and emotional...

2002-06-08T09:27:00.000-05:00

fuck, now i feel like crap , heh

2002-06-08T09:24:00.000-05:00

Ugh. I barely have any involvement, but my former circle of friends seems to be self-destructing little by little. Read Duo's, or pretty much any of my other friend's blogs and I guess the picture is pretty clear. It's so stupid, the basic mindless squabbling over stupid matters, the not talking about the extremely important matters, and the idiotic decisions made by everyone involved . Probably the only person not doin something stupid is Brett. It hella depresses me too cuz Iv never really tried to maintain my friendship with the guy, but hes one of the nicest people I know...and i can only sit by and watch as he gets continually screwed by his girlfriend and supposed friends. Same deal with the self-destructing group of friends mentioned earlier. Oh well, it's not like i can readily do anything about anything, im just some loner piece a shit that that used to be their friend, long forgotten, probably, and who only talks to a select handful of people at all anymore.

And as long as everyone else is complaining about shitty shit, i mine as well ponder a bit about my current state of being.

I can't really say that my life is much better than my friends, actually. In fact, i may be a fairly happy,lazy introvert at the moment, but i can tell i probably wont be going anywhere with my life, opposed to almost all of the friends that are doing all of this complaining.Im 17, i have no ambition, no passion for anything, no will to get a job,driver's liscence,or car, etc. And i mean, in the long run thats what really counts, right? i mean, these damn problems that all of my friends are getting all wierd about are really minor miniscule things in the long run.And im not even important enough to start comparing the magnitude of anyones problems, but i guess it just depresses me to see all these problems going on with all my friends,problems i cant even help to solve, and then 20, or even 10 years in the furture they'll be happy and probably fairly successful while im workin at fuckin Bakers or some shit cuz i never tried at anything, even the things i had interest in, like japanese.

So, even if Duo probably doesnt even remember me, i guess id try and say somethin helpful to cheer him up, and that this dumb shit is dumb shit , or something.

2002-06-04T17:42:00.000-05:00

I just woke up....and am currently riding around the house on a scooter in my boxers whilst drinking coffee. Boredom incarnate lol.

Summer vacation is finally here. I despised school so much this year I promised myself that I wouldnt say that I was bored at all this summer. Like everything else I say and do,however,Ill probably end up breaking that promise too, hehe.

I am kinda depressed though, suffice it to say I doubt ill see any of the friends i like to chill with at all this summer. Im like, poor, and i dont even have a car. Oh well -_-

No major site related changes, Jen has a new site location, which i've updated in the links bar, Oni got a new lay...not much else

-I'm out

2002-05-26T21:47:00.000-05:00

yes YES!! 3 more days of school!!! im so damn happy. allz i gotta do is some last minute homework things and projects and shit, and then im free for the summer (not counting the japanese classes) im gonna laze around and be unproductive. actually, i might try and get a job and stuff.

and in other more depressing news my grandpa died, which is sad in and of itself,but thats not what got me depressed. What got me depressed was that i wasnt THAT sad when he died, because i never really talked with him or knew him at all. I guess i felt kinda guilty -_-

2002-05-22T13:41:00.000-05:00

im not doin much of anything at all right now...which is sad cuz im like...at school ^_^;
Added Oni to my site links...aaaand...Jen and I created this clicky click thing called Anti-Neopets. We got fed up listening to her boyfriends little sister ramble on for hours about that stupid little online game ...and we pretty much hate everything about it.If you'd like to join the clique or wanna comment on it, mail either me or Jen (if you wanna complain about it...mail us, i guess.)

Im out.

2002-05-18T21:20:00.000-05:00

yay! new layout! this is probably my next favorite anime/manga....and once again i have jen to thank for it. a few minor changes, i added covin's and jen's sites to the list..and my mail has changed to Spike@ranmamail.com

also...nothin much happening at faye's blog or the slacks...*shrugs* shes not dead..but we're just really lazy people lol ^_^; how much can you expect from a blog about slackin hehe.

well..thats about all for now...i plan to write a lot more frequently .

im out ^^

2002-05-17T18:04:00.000-05:00

ok...i have to admit that iv been looking foreward to Star Wars Episode 2, Attack of the Clones for a while now...and i finally went to see it last night.

...and after seeing this sweet movie theres one thing that i walked away knowing..Yoda has to be the sweetest, awesomest, slickest badass motherfucker around. That is all.Thats the only reason to go see this movie..(and of course, 'cuz its cool and stuff) And if you dunno what im talkin about, go see the damn movie and you'll soon find out lol. XD

YODA IS MY HERO

2002-05-16T13:46:00.000-05:00

i feel the need to say this:

i will breed the ultimate chocobo...

WAARK!

2002-05-14T19:12:00.000-05:00

*yawn*
geezus..its been forever since i updated this. i havn't really been up to anything...well,thats not entirely true..iv been inundated with homework and things like that; iv also finally started my japanese classes at the local community college. they're a lot more work than i had guessed, a lot of bare memorizaton and stuff, but i like it.

i was sick yesterday and today, so i guess tha means a lot of make-up work in school too, ugh. thats all i could think to write of today..hopefully ill post more frequently.

2002-04-02T00:15:00.000-06:00

i cant believe im still doin this blog.
i dun know what to write 'cept im finally on spring break and stuff, which means a week of guilt free lazing about and doing nothing except what i want to. ^_^

sadly, i got high last weekend, and it got me thinking about a lot of shit...when i was comin down i got hella depressed cuz i felt alone and didnt really see my life goin anywhere.iv kinda withdrawn from a lot of things, like friends and stuff..even online friends.they probably think i hate em now anyways, oh well. all iv been doin lately is sleeping, eating,skating, and smoking the occasional cigarette (yea, i quite once before). whee.

2002-03-19T17:56:00.000-06:00

haha, i finally got these glasses i had been waiting for today. iv needed glasses for the longest time, but only just recently did i realized how much :P they're like, red tinted, and in ultra-violet light they turn like, dark purple or some shit, i think they're pretty cool. i think im tired of my physical appearance in general, to put it bluntly, im fuckin ugly...
well..in other topics i was in a fairly good mood today (i think it was partly because i was exhausted..yes, i know thats wierd) but i was talkin to friends and havin a fairly good day in general *shrugs* i confuse myself sometimes.

2002-03-18T19:03:00.000-06:00

wow , i sure have gotten lacksadaisical with my blog, oh well. i dont really know what to write..i didnt go to school today cuz i felt like shit...and i spent my day finishing up some homework and watching a movie. And the sentiment of the day is: "why are women so hard to understand??"
lol, anyways...my friend Mike linked me from his site, so i told him id link him, so here it is : http://mousse.killingmachines.org/
Once i get time to mess with my layout, ill incorporate his address into the links section.

2002-03-10T22:05:00.000-06:00

ugh today sucked. I woke up...i went online...i got depressed cuz no one was on to talk to..then i got depressed that i dont really have any friends in "real life" that i care about...plus im still battling to the death with my overblown sense of procrastination,in fact, if i dont sleep tonight, i have maybe 9 hours to work on 5 different huge assignment. *whinewhinewhine* i guess all i use this blog for is to bitch, because i dont have a chance or the desire to do so in real life. godDAMMIT ...my mother just informed me i have to do dishes also >.<

2002-03-08T00:27:00.000-06:00

I asked my friend Levi , who is a self proclaimed poet, to write something for me about (insert random topic here..) the uhm...sick irony of life, is what i finally decided on. Actually..he didn't want to do any work in our science class so he asked me to think of some topic for a poem. So thats what i picked and frankly..i was a little taken aback lol. But it's a cool soundin poem so i told him id publish it.For those few people that do read this blog, Drop him a line at LeviPerkins@aol.com and tell him what you thought of it , i might even start him a blog *shrugs*. I got fuckin homework to do >.<

2002-03-08T00:19:00.000-06:00

"Slipping Slowly Into Sleep

Death is Coming with Scythe to Reap

The Ice is Tingling Down my Spine

the Earthen Worms Soon Will Dine

Darkness Takes Over my Fading Sight

My Throat is Burning,my Chest is Tight

Will I Sleep Forever or Sleep no More?"

2002-03-02T18:55:00.000-06:00

im a

MISANTHROPE

i think...hehe

2002-03-02T18:46:00.000-06:00

nothing eventful going on with me lately. the usual in-family bickering between son and father,son and daughter, daughter and father etc...ugh now i just feel like shit, im glad i dont have any homework because i probably wouldnt do it anyways >.< im bummed about everything, my friend thinks im typical, haha..my other friend doesnt wanna talk to me and im just chillin here d-loadin manga scans all by my lonesome. i need to get a life, but im just too damn lazy...and im sick of dealing with all those stupid people *shrugs* oh well..

2002-02-26T00:20:00.000-06:00

ugh, i havnt been keeping up with this thing like i thought i would.
hehe, i got a 3 1/2 day week this week and im soooo happyyy and i dun have any damn homework, however i will be studying japanese on the side. apparently i cant take any college level japanese classes at the local college anymore cuz that would get in the way of my trip to japan in july. which sucks cuz i dont know any japanese >.< well, iv had a good friend offer her services in this regard, so i guess thats a major help hehe...i still think im screwed...

my life has been fairly uneventful i guess...iv been feeling sick on and off this whole week,not to mention the fact that iv had no homework lately, which is a good thing, but now i have nothing to do and am very confused in regards to what i should stress about and do for "fun"... *shrugs* oh well

2002-02-26T00:19:00.000-06:00

2002-02-15T00:15:00.000-06:00

damn, i havnt written in here for like, 4 days and stuff...
well..another valentines gone by and another reminder as to how lonely im getting, lol, if i even cared
Which reminds me, i got "The Official Slacker Handbook" today at the bookstore,which, if my buddy faye ever comes back to life, will be discussed on our blog "The Slacks"...

I haven't done much of anything this week except homework and depriving my already exhausted body of precious sleep..i plan on staying up all night to finish a last minute project i should have gotten done days ago >.< so i think this means im coming home after school and crashing for 16 hours...if i can even make it through school without dying, ugh

NOTE:I wrote this 3 days ago and thought i had published it...but apparently i didnt so im gonna publish it now , har har

2002-02-10T22:26:00.000-06:00

damn, i havnt written in here for days...nuthin much goin on in with my stupid ass...or should i say everything is normal, me worrying about homework, me not doing anything about it 'til the last minute...uhh...me eating and sleeping. lately iv been in the mood to draw and work on my dumb manga project i started, but i doubt i will...i always get discouraged when i figure out that my drawings suck lol.
*sigh* oh well, i think im gonna try and do a manga-style self portrait and then ill post it in here...

2002-02-08T17:51:00.000-06:00

blah
recently iv been having a turn around in energy and motivation...for everything except my fuckin geometry class and this blog hehe.
well..i tried to update my blog during school but there was too many swear words and the damn school's filter blocked the goddamn shit.
fuck fuck fuck ^_^
anyways...i guess i should call my friend and see whats up, i havn't talked to him for ages...yea i think ill do that, after i take a bath and a nap..

2002-02-05T20:23:00.000-06:00

"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"
-Dr. Seuss

ok, this is a Dr. Suess quote but it's pure fucking genius, i wish more people followed this philosophy..

2002-02-04T21:27:00.000-06:00

i dont know what the fuck to write...today i went through another bout of depression, i mean ...i flew through school like I always do, most of the shit wasn't that hard, but i wasn't very talkative to the few friends that still wanna hang out with me, and i kinda just walked through school like a wraith all day. *monotone* weee...
and i think im gettin sick *whine* i need a damn girlfriend or some easy source for sympathy lol

2002-02-03T17:02:00.000-06:00

HAHA

it's so stupid , but lately iv been wanting to have washboard abs like those other skinny yet good looking guys you see in ads and shit...so i started doing stupid crunches and stuff haha, i bet i do it for a week than give up because the effort level is too high..heh, life's bitch i guess ... and now because of procrastination i have a load of homework to do. I think im going to walk to mickey d's instead...

2002-02-02T13:15:00.000-06:00

im hungry and hopelessly lost.....

im going to try and find my way...by making breakfast...

2002-02-01T20:24:00.000-06:00

im so fuckin bored...ugh..oh well...i went snowboarding today...i ate the hill more than i slid down it but im not complaining...im a much better skater than a snowboarder anyway...the snow's all slick and stuff . For those of you that read this blog, me an my friend Faye are startin up a dumb team blog thing which you can access through the link up there... its nothin special, just thought id get the word out, lol. The only thing me an' Faye are plannin' on doin is BS'in and stuff..pretty interesting stuff really... it'll get a cool layout soon , too. I guess its time i did some homework for real...

2002-01-31T17:32:00.000-06:00

it snowed a little last night and they called a snow day! and now its snowng a LOT!!! that was a fairly cool way to start the day, get up at the crack of three... have a sudden feeling like im wasting my life..and then eat some cereal, take a bath, and then wasted my life online *cough* not like theres really anything i could be doing right now....

2002-01-30T20:44:00.000-06:00

DUDE

How's my layout look!? ^_^ i gotta give my good friend Jen hella props for makin' it, Jen you're the coolest .

2002-01-30T17:17:00.000-06:00

uh oh, a wave of laziness hit me yesterday and thats why i missed a day haha, but who really gives a shit, right?

i'v finally decided to get my lazy ass in gear and start learning japanese (which iv been telling myself ill do for the longest time) but i really feel like this is the time im gonna start , hehe...we'll see, i guess. Gotta do homework.....ugh.

UGH

2002-01-28T21:39:00.000-06:00

hehe , Roxy seems to think my blog looks better than hers... hers is pretty damn cool i think... her entries are funnier than mine lol >.<

2002-01-27T19:30:00.000-06:00

another boring day come and gone...
i just got done watchin 15 Minutes, i thought the movie was pretty damn good actually..
didn't do ANYTHING productive at all today, like usual ... just sat around on paltalk chattin with friends and stuff, and then i came upon a realization (through the help of my friend) im a goddamn slacker ! i mean... im talkin about near perfect slackerism beliefs and everything! im even going to buy a book on the topic!

well...ok maybe im not a total slacker cuz im about to do homework that REALLY fuckin needs to get done... maybe after i take a shower...

2002-01-27T12:20:00.000-06:00

HaHa...today i woke up wishing i had done my homework from the day before lol. i guess i had that one coming ^_^ im in a fairly better mood than yesterday. but now i got 3 big homework assignments to do , ugh, when will i learn >.<

Oh yea, im gonna get a new spike layout soon, so that'll be cool. Thats about it, i just woke up so ill maybe write in again later lol.

2002-01-26T18:09:00.000-06:00

MOTHERFUCK
I am so fucking bored i think im going to cry...no one's online to talk to and I still havn't done any fucking homework
I think i'll just go watch some tv or somethin...

2002-01-26T14:25:00.000-06:00

fate n.
a.The supposed force, principle, or power that predetermines events.
b.The inevitable events predestined by this force.

What i thought about this: I don't like the idea of fate too much..the idea that everything we do is predetermined and that we have no control over our lives, kinda takes away the whole philosophical idea of "living" wouldn't you say..?

Here I am , writing my own blog because 1)i have nothing better to do right now , and 2)I think its a good way to express my thoughts and feelings, because I never do that anyway...
The basic rundown of me is fairly short, I do fairly well in school even though i feel so lazy sometimes the guilt could kill me...I used to be extremely depressed and just recently it stared to hit me again -_- mainly about the fact that im a loner and very lazy sometimes, like i said.Lol, my cat is pretty cool, he doesn't think im a loser... and a couple people i talk to are really the only contact i want with the outside world right now. Thats really all ill say right now, cuz i dunno what else to write about myself...

Today I woke up feeling particularly shitty and lonely. My best (and pretty much only) friend is out of town visiting relatives right now >.< I think i'll just go take a shower and do some homework or somethin...